✨⚖️ The Stubborn Scale
This week, the scales didn’t budge. Not a tick. Not a shift… still.
And yes – I’ll be honest – that disappointed me.
We all understand this journey isn’t about the numbers. But when you’re putting in the effort, showing up, and pushing through, you hope for some visible proof. A little movement feels like validation. When it doesn’t come, it’s hard not to feel a little betrayed.
🌕🫠 Too Tired to Pretend I’m Not Tired
Physically, I’ve experienced a profound sense of exhaustion. Not sluggish at all, but tired in a way that sinks into your muscles and is hard to shake off. I attempted a 10k walk on Sunday – in 31 degree Celsius heat. Not my wisest move; yet, it felt good at that time.
Add to that the stress from the last few weeks at work. There have been ongoing demands, decision fatigue, and extra tasks outside any job description. There’s a quiet exhaustion in that too. A kind that doesn’t show up in steps or calories, but still wears you down.
🥵💪🏽 When Showing Up Feels Hard
Early on, I made a rule for myself. I should show up for the workout, even if it’s not perfect. But even that fell through this week.
Still, I gave it a shot. The day after that big walk, I managed a 20-minute fast walk and some strength training. I’ve never sweated like that before – the kind that makes you think, this must be working.
Only for the scales to reward me by saying I’d put on weight. I told myself they were either broken, biased, or simply out to get me. It is hard to believe that all that effort was in vain.
💌🕊️ A Kind Check-In
During a frustrating time, I received a kind message from Richelle at Juniper. She was checking in on how I was doing. The unexpected nature of it was deeply appreciated. And oddly therapeutic.
Somewhere between her asking and my response, I found myself sharing everything. The weight didn’t change, and I felt both tired and lost. Sometimes, all you need is someone to ask, and something inside finally unbottles.
🧿📱 Comparison is a Thief (Again)
I’ve been scrolling through Instagram and TikTok. I see many people sharing big weight losses—ten pounds in a few weeks. They post before-and-after pictures and promise a weight loss of 2 pounds each week. They highlight protein shakes on a regular basis and showcase their toned arms.
And I catch myself asking:
What are they doing that I’m not? Because I am eating clean, I am exercising.
So why do I feel like I’m moving in slow motion while everyone else is fast-forwarding?
It’s a dangerous spiral – and one I’m making a concerted effort to escape. Their journey isn’t mine. My pace is not their pace. But that doesn’t make mine any less valid.
I’m still waiting to hear from Richelle. I hope she can clarify a few things or at least make me feel less lonely during this journey.
🔮📝 What I’m Learning This Week
- A plateau isn’t failure – it’s feedback.
- Burnout doesn’t only affect your mind – your body carries it too.
- Sometimes “showing up” looks like telling the truth about how tired you are.
- Comparison can cloud your progress.
- The scales lie… but my sweat doesn’t.
- I’m allowed to ask for help and still trust my process.
🔥🕯️ This Week’s Reminder to Myself
Some weeks won’t be shiny or dramatic. They’ll be quiet, heavy, and testing.
But the shift is happening – beneath the surface, inside the mindset, in the way I keep choosing myself.
Even if the scales won’t move, I still am.
